Behind Green Eyes.

Today was there first day in my life that I have ever felt insignificant.

Also, today is the first day of my life that I feel like I might have slipped off the tight rope a little bit.

There hasn't been a safety net for years.

Everything is slowly starting to implode... giving me just enough time to come up with a plan before my life becomes a burning wreckage.

I can't even say at least I have my health, because I'm not at all healthy.

I need to simplify. I need to not have three jobs. I need to start going through this pile of laundry and jettison things I don't ever wear. I need to donate a few of these trinkets i have lying around...sell a poster or two.

I think I'm having problems with my life because I have too much life and not enough time to devote to it.

And this job that is paying my crap money and giving me no hours but won't let me request to get another job because they still claim to be my "Main place of employment" needs to be gone. It was great when I was 19, Not when I'm 26.

I won't be going back either.

There are no constants anymore. Everything in my life is fluid. EVERYTHING. People, jobs, stability, health. nothing is secure.

One slip off that tight rope and I am screwed.

I almost cried today because of the pressure. It take a lot for me to cry.

I need to fix this, now.

I NEED TO FIX THIS, NOW!!!!!

I NEED TO FIX THIS, NOW!!!!!!!

-G